Beautifully spoken Samantha, that place inside us where we ‘know’ what we have touched. Sometimes we can explain it…sometimes we can only feel what it is…but sometimes we just ‘know’ it. Don’t have to go anywhere with it but inside ourselves.
I started to fall in love one day…so, so far beyond anything I had ever touched before. And in those early hours just before we wake I used to come to a place where I could ‘chat’ with Spirit and Spirit said to me ‘Is this where you want to go?’, and I of course said yes, she was the most incredible lady I had ever met. And a couple of weeks later the same thing happened and Spirit asked me again ‘is this where you want to go?’, and I had gone somewhere even deeper with this lovely lady and of course, and with more conviction said ‘oh yes!’. And another few weeks went by and it happened again, and Spirit asked again ‘is this where you want to go?’. I (ok, I’m a male 🤣), finally realized that something quite profound was happening here and I needed to take it in on that level. So I said I loved this woman with all my heart, of course I want to be with her but realize this is something very important. So off I went smiling inside and out, touching somewhere I had never been before. Never an argument, never a cross word, balancing so beautifully in all we did. Until it ended.
Then I fell…and such a long, long way down. But in that journey she gave me a gift…it is the most powerful gift I have ever been given. That gift was in seeing who I really was, facing myself and in doing so dared me to see my fear. And because of that understanding I now realize that this entire journey takes us there, sometimes slowly, sometimes fast…but always inside ourselves so that we can see and finally find us, the true us, and finally loving ourselves by letting go what we were to become what we are…that unconditional love waiting inside to be freed.
I hear a heart freely beating kind lady, a place only found because you dared to believe in yourself ❤️🙏
Was your love story what brought on your spiritual awakening too? Or was it your near-death experience? Either way, I hope it’s in your book. I’d love to read it ❤ thank you, Mark. It's all so beautiful.
Since childhood I had this ‘knowing’ that would come through, but rarely, and I would just get in the way simply because I didn’t have the understanding to ‘let me go’ and listen. I thought everyone had it so I just blurted out those odd moments and they thought I was nuts, so I shut up and kept those odd bits to myself. My ‘moment’ was at the grand old age of 40 (the lady I fell madly in love with above, I was 51), I was having a group of friends at my place for a mediation and I never even began it, I was talking to a friend and suddenly something triggered and I just burst into tears and all this ‘stuff’ broke inside me and I began to really ‘feel’ events and others but in a different way. Where before I could only sense bits, now was in a more general way. It was like that trigger had broken a shield over me, stepped through something that had been blocking me and on top of that it felt like it was a time thing. I had reached a place within myself to begin another path. And I would even meet people who would help me on that path. And any big moments I go through, like my death, it seems to ‘open’ a little more but with a tendency to add to what went before but differently, simply because I had changed. My death went from helping hearts physically and emotionally to stepping truly into a more spiritual approach. It has been like school, slowly advancing until I can do calculus where many years ago that would seem like magic…now more understood. Love is the same, we always feel its beauty but in my youth I can love an ice cream, on up to now I can love another more deeply. That is experience, understanding and the wisdom within it. Ooh, what have you done Samantha…I think I just started my book haha 🤣❤️🙏
Haha, well then, you’re welcome I guess 🙂 seriously though, it’s great. Especially the calculus part. I get it now…what seemed like magic is actually much more tangible with more experience and understanding. It’s all so perfect. Can’t wait to read about it. The love story in particular. Isn’t it something that so many have a great love story, but so few end up with the person in their story? That’s so fascinating to me.
It is the most perfect thing Samantha, I still stand gobsmacked when so many things for so many people just comes together perfectly…just from one simple event. And those love stories are exactly the same, we attract that very person who we will fall in love with…so that they can teach us self love. They will always have ‘something’ to nudge that part of us that is our block to that self love, that fear, that covering over with our masks. Those relationships are teaching us that calculus, that magic of self love. Our fears hold us in a negative self doubt…but unconditional love wants us to open, and slowly this world and all its bits will polish up a heart by reflecting those fears within us…back to us from within another. Like the teachers throwing a new type of calculus to which we go yuck…but after a while it becomes second nature…and…it definitely goes with what went before, and we become something better for it. In the end, scarred and battered we might feel, but truly knowing we have achieved something very magical, very beautiful and very loving and profound in its understanding. To finally love us beyond that last condition we hold against ourselves. When those doubts and fears are understood, like all else we understand, we don’t think about them anymore…we are that understanding, we are the ‘I am’ that unconditional love is. By understanding one we ‘become’ the other. When you finally understand, great big beautiful happy tears will flow loose from within. Like those exams for calculus when you come outside after it and ‘know’ you have done great and feel great because of it…but this unconditional love understanding is so much more profound, it is your entire life journey, not just a fraction of a moment in your life. But…all those fractions ARE polishing something very beautiful within you to create that understanding ❤️🙏
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Beautifully spoken Samantha, that place inside us where we ‘know’ what we have touched. Sometimes we can explain it…sometimes we can only feel what it is…but sometimes we just ‘know’ it. Don’t have to go anywhere with it but inside ourselves.
I started to fall in love one day…so, so far beyond anything I had ever touched before. And in those early hours just before we wake I used to come to a place where I could ‘chat’ with Spirit and Spirit said to me ‘Is this where you want to go?’, and I of course said yes, she was the most incredible lady I had ever met. And a couple of weeks later the same thing happened and Spirit asked me again ‘is this where you want to go?’, and I had gone somewhere even deeper with this lovely lady and of course, and with more conviction said ‘oh yes!’. And another few weeks went by and it happened again, and Spirit asked again ‘is this where you want to go?’. I (ok, I’m a male 🤣), finally realized that something quite profound was happening here and I needed to take it in on that level. So I said I loved this woman with all my heart, of course I want to be with her but realize this is something very important. So off I went smiling inside and out, touching somewhere I had never been before. Never an argument, never a cross word, balancing so beautifully in all we did. Until it ended.
Then I fell…and such a long, long way down. But in that journey she gave me a gift…it is the most powerful gift I have ever been given. That gift was in seeing who I really was, facing myself and in doing so dared me to see my fear. And because of that understanding I now realize that this entire journey takes us there, sometimes slowly, sometimes fast…but always inside ourselves so that we can see and finally find us, the true us, and finally loving ourselves by letting go what we were to become what we are…that unconditional love waiting inside to be freed.
I hear a heart freely beating kind lady, a place only found because you dared to believe in yourself ❤️🙏
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Was your love story what brought on your spiritual awakening too? Or was it your near-death experience? Either way, I hope it’s in your book. I’d love to read it ❤ thank you, Mark. It's all so beautiful.
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Since childhood I had this ‘knowing’ that would come through, but rarely, and I would just get in the way simply because I didn’t have the understanding to ‘let me go’ and listen. I thought everyone had it so I just blurted out those odd moments and they thought I was nuts, so I shut up and kept those odd bits to myself. My ‘moment’ was at the grand old age of 40 (the lady I fell madly in love with above, I was 51), I was having a group of friends at my place for a mediation and I never even began it, I was talking to a friend and suddenly something triggered and I just burst into tears and all this ‘stuff’ broke inside me and I began to really ‘feel’ events and others but in a different way. Where before I could only sense bits, now was in a more general way. It was like that trigger had broken a shield over me, stepped through something that had been blocking me and on top of that it felt like it was a time thing. I had reached a place within myself to begin another path. And I would even meet people who would help me on that path. And any big moments I go through, like my death, it seems to ‘open’ a little more but with a tendency to add to what went before but differently, simply because I had changed. My death went from helping hearts physically and emotionally to stepping truly into a more spiritual approach. It has been like school, slowly advancing until I can do calculus where many years ago that would seem like magic…now more understood. Love is the same, we always feel its beauty but in my youth I can love an ice cream, on up to now I can love another more deeply. That is experience, understanding and the wisdom within it. Ooh, what have you done Samantha…I think I just started my book haha 🤣❤️🙏
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Haha, well then, you’re welcome I guess 🙂 seriously though, it’s great. Especially the calculus part. I get it now…what seemed like magic is actually much more tangible with more experience and understanding. It’s all so perfect. Can’t wait to read about it. The love story in particular. Isn’t it something that so many have a great love story, but so few end up with the person in their story? That’s so fascinating to me.
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It is the most perfect thing Samantha, I still stand gobsmacked when so many things for so many people just comes together perfectly…just from one simple event. And those love stories are exactly the same, we attract that very person who we will fall in love with…so that they can teach us self love. They will always have ‘something’ to nudge that part of us that is our block to that self love, that fear, that covering over with our masks. Those relationships are teaching us that calculus, that magic of self love. Our fears hold us in a negative self doubt…but unconditional love wants us to open, and slowly this world and all its bits will polish up a heart by reflecting those fears within us…back to us from within another. Like the teachers throwing a new type of calculus to which we go yuck…but after a while it becomes second nature…and…it definitely goes with what went before, and we become something better for it. In the end, scarred and battered we might feel, but truly knowing we have achieved something very magical, very beautiful and very loving and profound in its understanding. To finally love us beyond that last condition we hold against ourselves. When those doubts and fears are understood, like all else we understand, we don’t think about them anymore…we are that understanding, we are the ‘I am’ that unconditional love is. By understanding one we ‘become’ the other. When you finally understand, great big beautiful happy tears will flow loose from within. Like those exams for calculus when you come outside after it and ‘know’ you have done great and feel great because of it…but this unconditional love understanding is so much more profound, it is your entire life journey, not just a fraction of a moment in your life. But…all those fractions ARE polishing something very beautiful within you to create that understanding ❤️🙏
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Yes. It is quite perfect. I always felt that even amongst the madness ❤ this is great, Mark.
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