To catch.
Storytime ~ Chapter 24
To catch.
To catch.
Who is the enemy here??
Secrets...Alcoholism. Blind ego.
Serendipity...An ode to Sienna.
Connection...A lover loving love.
Tragedy...addiction. There's another way.
The insanity of humanity. As within, so without.
Ancestors...Love is never the problem.
Family...break the chains.
When I think about this time, I can still feel the music...
The answer we’re looking for is found in the place we least want to look. They are in Beowulf’s Grendel. They are the dragon lurking deep in our individual caves needing to be slayed.
How could I detach in a healthy way if I’m suppressing emotions? I couldn’t. I would be too cold. Hypothermia is not healthy.
At the end of the day (at the end of this life) that's all I have. MY own love and anything it touches (or doesn't) will be my legacy.
I barely slept at all that night (or many nights to come). Every time I woke up, I would remember and cry.
It was a staggering contrast, the serenity of such a blissful moment coming together with the implications of this message.
Then came the day I’ve been dreading to write about, but also the reason I’m here sharing my story with you…It was a deceptively lovely Tuesday morning in August...
Though I’d much rather be soaring above the clouds or swept away by the sea, I had risen from the ashes before too. I could do it again. Besides, I was born in a fire. I'm not afraid to burn for a cause.
I’ve always found that when something’s right for me, the path opens up. That opening comes with a feeling…the feeling I only know how to describe as expansive. Not restrictive.
I understand the innate sensitivity of the ego. For this reason, I will cater to it briefly in the hopes of cutting through some of the delusions it likes to create…