Thank you Samantha, your words are gratefully received kind lady…even though they caught me off guard 🤣
But how can I not share what God/Spirit asked me to share. To see in loves depth such a beauty even in its pain. You have indeed been down a very powerful path, so lost without any understanding for so long. But love speaks in so many ways, I hear it each time you speak. Those changes as we find and come to terms with so much.
And now reaching episode 44, in that forest patch, I heard you laugh. Not that stressed out, lost, forced, uneven laugh, but one lovingly made because of that acceptance of you. That knowing of just what you’ve been through has slowly built a very incredible love in experiencing so much. And the empathy and compassion of you that has built it.
That loving being that is you cannot reach that place without these very experiences. Yes, just an email with a story would be great…but without all you have touched, hard as it was, gave you these incredible things now in your heart. And in doing so, you now give out those very things. You have become them, no longer a fearful love because of what you were…but what you have become.
You are no longer that frightened rabbit in someone’s headlight. Mind you, you did have the wisdom to move along quickly when that hunter turned up. Now that is wisdom kind lady, from all you have learned 🤣
But this incredible journey down here does indeed teach us so much, and we absorb it as we can in those experiences. And in that moment when I dared to face that ‘thing’ that so absorbs us in life, that ‘fear’ we hold down deep…I finally understood it. It was such a powerful gift to realize that everything I had done in life was reaching for this very moment. Yes, lots of awakenings happen in our life, there are no wrong steps (unless you refuse to listen to your heart deliberately, fearfully is a completely different thing), and each and every step does indeed share its purpose, even if we cannot understand in the beginning.
The meaning of life is to dare to understand us, face those parts that disturb us, those fears, and go beyond them. For through there is those doubts, negativity, loss of who we are all through our lives. Many come into a relationship with us to poke those very things. Yes, lovingly, sometimes scared, even angry…but ever to dare us to look and see what they uncover in us.
And on that day that I saw and understood my fear, I broke down in huge sobs of happiness. For it had shown me that I wasn’t worthless, wasn’t unlovable, wasn’t wasted in any way…but in fact had been courageously breaking through those many shields I had held in place against its pain. At the time it just felt a mess, and we need to reach that place where everything seems to be going to hell in a hand basket…but…it is in that very worst time that we have nothing to lose and take that last step into that pain…and dare to understand what we had been avoiding forever.
And you did that Samantha, and proved it just now by that small genuine laughter. A sign that very slowly you have gone beyond its pain and begun to love you. You only ever give out what you are, and instead of that little shaking rabbit in the headlights, fearful of what it is coming at you…you have begun to turn away in understanding a different light, the one that only love can give.
Big hugs kind lady, it has indeed been a big journey. But gladly I see that light within, and that inner smile it brings. Take a bow, and thank you for daring to share a heart that has been through so much 🤗❤️🙏
In Bloom 
Thank you Samantha, your words are gratefully received kind lady…even though they caught me off guard 🤣
But how can I not share what God/Spirit asked me to share. To see in loves depth such a beauty even in its pain. You have indeed been down a very powerful path, so lost without any understanding for so long. But love speaks in so many ways, I hear it each time you speak. Those changes as we find and come to terms with so much.
And now reaching episode 44, in that forest patch, I heard you laugh. Not that stressed out, lost, forced, uneven laugh, but one lovingly made because of that acceptance of you. That knowing of just what you’ve been through has slowly built a very incredible love in experiencing so much. And the empathy and compassion of you that has built it.
That loving being that is you cannot reach that place without these very experiences. Yes, just an email with a story would be great…but without all you have touched, hard as it was, gave you these incredible things now in your heart. And in doing so, you now give out those very things. You have become them, no longer a fearful love because of what you were…but what you have become.
You are no longer that frightened rabbit in someone’s headlight. Mind you, you did have the wisdom to move along quickly when that hunter turned up. Now that is wisdom kind lady, from all you have learned 🤣
But this incredible journey down here does indeed teach us so much, and we absorb it as we can in those experiences. And in that moment when I dared to face that ‘thing’ that so absorbs us in life, that ‘fear’ we hold down deep…I finally understood it. It was such a powerful gift to realize that everything I had done in life was reaching for this very moment. Yes, lots of awakenings happen in our life, there are no wrong steps (unless you refuse to listen to your heart deliberately, fearfully is a completely different thing), and each and every step does indeed share its purpose, even if we cannot understand in the beginning.
The meaning of life is to dare to understand us, face those parts that disturb us, those fears, and go beyond them. For through there is those doubts, negativity, loss of who we are all through our lives. Many come into a relationship with us to poke those very things. Yes, lovingly, sometimes scared, even angry…but ever to dare us to look and see what they uncover in us.
And on that day that I saw and understood my fear, I broke down in huge sobs of happiness. For it had shown me that I wasn’t worthless, wasn’t unlovable, wasn’t wasted in any way…but in fact had been courageously breaking through those many shields I had held in place against its pain. At the time it just felt a mess, and we need to reach that place where everything seems to be going to hell in a hand basket…but…it is in that very worst time that we have nothing to lose and take that last step into that pain…and dare to understand what we had been avoiding forever.
And you did that Samantha, and proved it just now by that small genuine laughter. A sign that very slowly you have gone beyond its pain and begun to love you. You only ever give out what you are, and instead of that little shaking rabbit in the headlights, fearful of what it is coming at you…you have begun to turn away in understanding a different light, the one that only love can give.
Big hugs kind lady, it has indeed been a big journey. But gladly I see that light within, and that inner smile it brings. Take a bow, and thank you for daring to share a heart that has been through so much 🤗❤️🙏
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